Wandering Ponderings
I think this is generally where I’m supposed to say something like, “Wow, it’s been a long time since I updated this,” or, “Sorry I haven’t posted in a while,” or, “I’ve been too busy,” etc, but the truth is that I haven’t too busy; I kind of forgot my blog existed.
I’ve always been this way: I get interested with something, be it writing music, writing stories, making videos, keeping a blog, knitting, working out, reading, or a plethora of other endeavors, and I work on it with a certain zeal, and then I suddenly find myself interested in something else. I think I’ve inherited this trait from my father, though it afflicts him in a different way: he spends a bunch of money on books or equipment in preparation for a given hobby, but tends to lose interest before actually getting into it.
To a certain extent, I feel like I have Hobby A.D.D.. Is this something that most people experience? Or do most find more happiness in focusing on a small number of things? I imagine I should be thankful that I have the freedom to flounder so much; in less-developed areas of the world, many don’t have that luxury. But it’s not just with hobbies that I feel this way; I feel the same toward my “career”. I really can’t imagine myself, at the end of my days, looking back at my life to see that I had been just one thing for fifty years. I want to have an extensive list of accomplishments in a variety of fields.
Accomplishing this goal isn’t going to be easy. I’m about to turn twenty-four, and I’m suddenly feeling like I haven’t done enough with my life. I’m seeing people I went to high school with graduating from college, getting good-paying jobs, starting families, buying houses, etc., and I feel like all I’ve done with my life in the past few years is post a few videos on the Internet. I don’t have a degree, I’m not making any substantial money from anything, marriage/kids are still way down the road, and buying a house might be even further.
I was watching CNN last week, and they were interviewing a United States Congressman by the name of Aaron Schock who was twenty-eight. He was elected to serve on his local school board at the age of nineteen. By twenty-three, he was president of the school board. The same year, he ran for and won a seat in the Illinois House of Representatives. Four years later, at the age of twenty-seven, he ran for and won a seat in the United State House of Representatives. He seems to have accomplished so much at such a young age, and if I’m being honest with myself, it makes me a bit jealous.
So where does that leave me? We’ve learned two things: I have C.A.O.H.A.D.D.*, and I want to accomplish many things. How do I make these things work together? It seems as logical as trying to get somewhere in particular by riding a Roomba. Who knows? Maybe this is the year I teach myself to focus on things just a little bit longer before moving on.
*Career And/Or Hobby Attention Deficit Disorder
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